Post by Peanut on Feb 23, 2008 16:32:09 GMT -5
I've gotten very hurt months ago and I've been upset and I've been crying and I'm all ruined and devastated because of this. I'll be okay, but it's going to take a while...it's definately something I will never forget.
Well I had written a letter to my sister and asked her if I could come to see her cuz my dad was going to see her and I knew that but I said it was entirely upto her. It's thursday now and he has been with her. I didn't get a reply from her so we called my grandma and asked if I could stay there and my dad would pick me up from there later. I wished that she would have called and said "Sure...bring her along" but...that is just not how it all went. Listen up.
I'm devastated today and heartbroken as I type this. It's shocking what my dad found out and got told by her today. Basically: My sister.. she...doesn't want to see me anymore. she didn't give a reason, she just doesn't want to have anything to do with me. My dad said to her "You have a sister who adores you. She looks upto you so much" "You're her rolemodel" "I don't want to be her rolemodel."
I have been crying ever since he told me because it does hurt a lot. So...I won't see my nephew...because she doesn't want anything to do with me..or want me to contact her.
She said to my dad "I have a feeling she has been trying to get into contact with me and I don't share the same feelings for her" "When you got that family 17 years ago, I did not have any influence on that. I didn't sign up for this"
I'm trying to figure out what to do with the stuff I bought for my nephew now that my sister doesn't want anything to do with me.
She made me a book when I was 4. I should write "Remember that book you wrote me...that's okay I really like it..you don't have to mean the stuff you write"
I guess..with the letter I wrote to her..I was hoping for a different answer from her and certainly not the one I got from her. Frankly...I hate my life right now. I just loved her so much and I've spend so much time writing long emails to her and looked forward to getting a reply whereas I got none. I've spend so much time thinking of her and the little one.
I just..I guess I had a different image of my sis....feel like...17 years of relationship has just vanished...it's gone
The way she has been saying this is...translated into. "I don't care anything about her and I don't want anything to do with her. She needs to leave me alone"
I really didn't think she could be that heartless. My dad had a hard time telling me this because he knew how I was going to react and he has tried comforting but...it's not helping much you know? This stuff has still been said and it has been said by a person I really did care about...
My dad said she's going to come back and when that time comes I'll turn my back to her when she needs my help. She has really hurt me and I don't know how to cope...don't know what to do. I'm sitting with tears in my eyes constantly and I don't know how to act or to lead a normal life. It seems impossible right now but I will have to move on..and I need your help to do that.
The thing is, she must still care a tiny bit. Because when I wrote her some texts she answered with "Dear" and finished with "Love" She is not very nice to me and I don't get why. I've never done her anything. I will try to explain why she is being like this. We have the same dad but not the same mom and she hates my mom. When I was born, she loved me and she always visited me. She called her her "Littlesis" The age difference does do something though because there is 19 years between us. She was an only child between her mom and our dad. She had been an only child for too long when I was born.
Kids with no siblings get everything their way and are spoiled roten very often (Some are) and that is what happened to my sister so when she didn't get her way she got furious. The way she is towards me is really supposed to be taken out on my dad and not me. She is very jealous that I took her 'spot' as my dad's girl. She was his girl before and because I'm 19 years younger I need him more than she does. I live with him and have him in my everyday life.
I need to be punished because I need him more. She's in her mid thirties and she's acting like a spoiled brat. At one point in my life, we did not see each other. I called her on my 11th birthday and talked to her and she got very happy. We started talking on the phone regularly and she told me she was ready to be with us again.
The problem is she comes into my life, she goes, comes goes come goes. You have no idea how rough it is on me. I know I shouldn't think of it like this but really..why is she doing this? I'm a human being. I'm very very sensitive and I have been emotionally hurt badly so many times in my life. I've been abused verbally and she's doing the same thing now.
The only one who has been able to stop the verbal abuse from my mom is my dad. Right now me and my mom are on good terms but when we aren't, she uses verbal abuse against me and it weakens me. I understand my sister can't stand my mother but we do have the same dad. She could atleast start treating me like her littlesister. I am her littlesister, whether she likes it or not. I'm the middlechild. I have an 18 months younger brother. Luckily he is good with emotions and he just does not care about her. What's worse about this? Our sister is the godmother of our littlebrother and she has never been there for him.
What could have happened for her to do this? It happened during the last stage of her pregnancy with little Johs. Am I that bad? Am I a horrible littlesister for caring about her? For trying to show her that I love her.
Sometimes people go "Soo...how many siblings have you got?" "I've got an older sister who hates me and an annoying younger brother"
Maybe she will come around someday but when will that be? And if it ever happens which it will (She'll regret this. Everyone does once they do this) I will turn my back to her like she did so many times.
Why did she act like she loved me when I was younger and then when she got pregnant she suddenly she doesn't care any longer. It isn't fair on me and I wish I had never gotten to know her. I'm so angry at her and I don't know how to type it all up and tell her. In 2006 in February, our dad was about to die and she came and spend time with me and our brother and I asked her if she was going to have a baby soon and she smiled and said she wanted to and that she would let me know how everything turned out. Well she never did and she never gave me pictures of her belly. I got some from the emails she had sent our dad.
My dad has not been in contact with her ever since she said this to him about me. He is very angry at her and very disappointed in her but it saddens him that he cannot see his first grandchild. It hurts him. We went to see my grandma and he saw pictures of Johs. I had already showed pictures of him. I think he does care and wish he could see him but not when his daughter is being like this.
When we left our grandma just before we left he said "Let me know how my little grandson is doing" this was the first time I've heard him say that about J. Sorry for this long rant. I just...I don't know how to cope. I don't know what to say or do. I wish everything would be okay. I became an aunt in September and I haven't met the little guy.
I wish to meet him and hold him and play with him. I asked in a text when I was in Copenhagen where she lives if we coud meet up and she said "The way things are now, we can't meet up" Well she can go have an idiotic life with no family members around.
Well I had written a letter to my sister and asked her if I could come to see her cuz my dad was going to see her and I knew that but I said it was entirely upto her. It's thursday now and he has been with her. I didn't get a reply from her so we called my grandma and asked if I could stay there and my dad would pick me up from there later. I wished that she would have called and said "Sure...bring her along" but...that is just not how it all went. Listen up.
I'm devastated today and heartbroken as I type this. It's shocking what my dad found out and got told by her today. Basically: My sister.. she...doesn't want to see me anymore. she didn't give a reason, she just doesn't want to have anything to do with me. My dad said to her "You have a sister who adores you. She looks upto you so much" "You're her rolemodel" "I don't want to be her rolemodel."
I have been crying ever since he told me because it does hurt a lot. So...I won't see my nephew...because she doesn't want anything to do with me..or want me to contact her.
She said to my dad "I have a feeling she has been trying to get into contact with me and I don't share the same feelings for her" "When you got that family 17 years ago, I did not have any influence on that. I didn't sign up for this"
I'm trying to figure out what to do with the stuff I bought for my nephew now that my sister doesn't want anything to do with me.
She made me a book when I was 4. I should write "Remember that book you wrote me...that's okay I really like it..you don't have to mean the stuff you write"
I guess..with the letter I wrote to her..I was hoping for a different answer from her and certainly not the one I got from her. Frankly...I hate my life right now. I just loved her so much and I've spend so much time writing long emails to her and looked forward to getting a reply whereas I got none. I've spend so much time thinking of her and the little one.
I just..I guess I had a different image of my sis....feel like...17 years of relationship has just vanished...it's gone
The way she has been saying this is...translated into. "I don't care anything about her and I don't want anything to do with her. She needs to leave me alone"
I really didn't think she could be that heartless. My dad had a hard time telling me this because he knew how I was going to react and he has tried comforting but...it's not helping much you know? This stuff has still been said and it has been said by a person I really did care about...
My dad said she's going to come back and when that time comes I'll turn my back to her when she needs my help. She has really hurt me and I don't know how to cope...don't know what to do. I'm sitting with tears in my eyes constantly and I don't know how to act or to lead a normal life. It seems impossible right now but I will have to move on..and I need your help to do that.
The thing is, she must still care a tiny bit. Because when I wrote her some texts she answered with "Dear" and finished with "Love" She is not very nice to me and I don't get why. I've never done her anything. I will try to explain why she is being like this. We have the same dad but not the same mom and she hates my mom. When I was born, she loved me and she always visited me. She called her her "Littlesis" The age difference does do something though because there is 19 years between us. She was an only child between her mom and our dad. She had been an only child for too long when I was born.
Kids with no siblings get everything their way and are spoiled roten very often (Some are) and that is what happened to my sister so when she didn't get her way she got furious. The way she is towards me is really supposed to be taken out on my dad and not me. She is very jealous that I took her 'spot' as my dad's girl. She was his girl before and because I'm 19 years younger I need him more than she does. I live with him and have him in my everyday life.
I need to be punished because I need him more. She's in her mid thirties and she's acting like a spoiled brat. At one point in my life, we did not see each other. I called her on my 11th birthday and talked to her and she got very happy. We started talking on the phone regularly and she told me she was ready to be with us again.
The problem is she comes into my life, she goes, comes goes come goes. You have no idea how rough it is on me. I know I shouldn't think of it like this but really..why is she doing this? I'm a human being. I'm very very sensitive and I have been emotionally hurt badly so many times in my life. I've been abused verbally and she's doing the same thing now.
The only one who has been able to stop the verbal abuse from my mom is my dad. Right now me and my mom are on good terms but when we aren't, she uses verbal abuse against me and it weakens me. I understand my sister can't stand my mother but we do have the same dad. She could atleast start treating me like her littlesister. I am her littlesister, whether she likes it or not. I'm the middlechild. I have an 18 months younger brother. Luckily he is good with emotions and he just does not care about her. What's worse about this? Our sister is the godmother of our littlebrother and she has never been there for him.
What could have happened for her to do this? It happened during the last stage of her pregnancy with little Johs. Am I that bad? Am I a horrible littlesister for caring about her? For trying to show her that I love her.
Sometimes people go "Soo...how many siblings have you got?" "I've got an older sister who hates me and an annoying younger brother"
Maybe she will come around someday but when will that be? And if it ever happens which it will (She'll regret this. Everyone does once they do this) I will turn my back to her like she did so many times.
Why did she act like she loved me when I was younger and then when she got pregnant she suddenly she doesn't care any longer. It isn't fair on me and I wish I had never gotten to know her. I'm so angry at her and I don't know how to type it all up and tell her. In 2006 in February, our dad was about to die and she came and spend time with me and our brother and I asked her if she was going to have a baby soon and she smiled and said she wanted to and that she would let me know how everything turned out. Well she never did and she never gave me pictures of her belly. I got some from the emails she had sent our dad.
My dad has not been in contact with her ever since she said this to him about me. He is very angry at her and very disappointed in her but it saddens him that he cannot see his first grandchild. It hurts him. We went to see my grandma and he saw pictures of Johs. I had already showed pictures of him. I think he does care and wish he could see him but not when his daughter is being like this.
When we left our grandma just before we left he said "Let me know how my little grandson is doing" this was the first time I've heard him say that about J. Sorry for this long rant. I just...I don't know how to cope. I don't know what to say or do. I wish everything would be okay. I became an aunt in September and I haven't met the little guy.
I wish to meet him and hold him and play with him. I asked in a text when I was in Copenhagen where she lives if we coud meet up and she said "The way things are now, we can't meet up" Well she can go have an idiotic life with no family members around.
