Post by Buffy on Aug 22, 2009 5:57:53 GMT -5
Hello everyone! 
it feels good to finally log-in to the site and have some time to write a message, well i'm posting this mainly explaining why i've been away for so long, and why when I come on I haven't been able to do anything. Well as some of you are aware, my Mum unfortunately has bio-polar disorder, in short it can change your mood, make you see things which arn't really there, crazy, makes you think people were stealing, playing mind games with you, etc.
Well yeah.. that's pretty much what i've been going through the last two months, so i've hardly been able to type on the keyboard, or even update my own personal twitter! not to mention my cousins have borrowed my laptop for the last two months, and the amount of junk they've put onto it, I can barely even find my own log-in name for bebo as they've made so many celebrity accounts like Vanessa Hudgens, Zac Efron, even charmed actresses Shannen Doherty and Holly. So I wasn't really amused with what they've been doing with my laptop, but theres nothing I can, so anyhow.
THE STORY:
It was the night of my brothers prom, and i'd returnt home from an ICT lesson, it was nice.. I came in to see my brother having pictures done, etc. And the same day my Mum had organised for a prom after party at our house, and she kept abusing the help anyone offered so she ended up doing EVERYTHING alone, causing her to be very stressed, etc. So after my brother returned home from his prom, all his friends came shortly afterwards.. and he had a nice night, few drinks, laughing and joking with his friends, a lovely way to end the night. Then come morning my I was woken by my Mum who was throwing things around the house, yelling her head off like some maniacs, she came up the stairs, instantly ordering us to get out the house, so we were gathering our things together (me and my brother) and she was still demanding, so my brother replied "Wait! were getting our things" and she replied "Get out or i'll throw you down the stairs" and then he replied "Go on, I dare you.." and as soon as her hands reached his shoulders, he had rammed her into his desk, hit her in the face, etc. And by that point I was crying my eyes out and had rushed into the room, called the police, and my brother had called my Mum's friend, and she got us out the house safely and held my Mum back from hitting us.
She had even slit her wrists and made up stories, one of which was "Raped by ten men"
So yeah.. the last two months have been a real struggle for me, and it's unfortunate for my brother, it all had to happen after such a lovely night. But it's been the same cycle for over 5 years, she's fine for a few weeks.. break down next week, hospital (we think she's better when she comes out) and then another breakdown.
Right now i'm staying at my Grandma's, and I haven't seen my Mum for over two months. I've even had horrible thoughts of ending my own life as all I seem to be getting is heartache, and sadness. But my councillers and social workers have helped me, so I hope to see you all again soon.
Love you all.
Leah/Trish.
xx
it feels good to finally log-in to the site and have some time to write a message, well i'm posting this mainly explaining why i've been away for so long, and why when I come on I haven't been able to do anything. Well as some of you are aware, my Mum unfortunately has bio-polar disorder, in short it can change your mood, make you see things which arn't really there, crazy, makes you think people were stealing, playing mind games with you, etc.Well yeah.. that's pretty much what i've been going through the last two months, so i've hardly been able to type on the keyboard, or even update my own personal twitter! not to mention my cousins have borrowed my laptop for the last two months, and the amount of junk they've put onto it, I can barely even find my own log-in name for bebo as they've made so many celebrity accounts like Vanessa Hudgens, Zac Efron, even charmed actresses Shannen Doherty and Holly. So I wasn't really amused with what they've been doing with my laptop, but theres nothing I can, so anyhow.
THE STORY:
It was the night of my brothers prom, and i'd returnt home from an ICT lesson, it was nice.. I came in to see my brother having pictures done, etc. And the same day my Mum had organised for a prom after party at our house, and she kept abusing the help anyone offered so she ended up doing EVERYTHING alone, causing her to be very stressed, etc. So after my brother returned home from his prom, all his friends came shortly afterwards.. and he had a nice night, few drinks, laughing and joking with his friends, a lovely way to end the night. Then come morning my I was woken by my Mum who was throwing things around the house, yelling her head off like some maniacs, she came up the stairs, instantly ordering us to get out the house, so we were gathering our things together (me and my brother) and she was still demanding, so my brother replied "Wait! were getting our things" and she replied "Get out or i'll throw you down the stairs" and then he replied "Go on, I dare you.." and as soon as her hands reached his shoulders, he had rammed her into his desk, hit her in the face, etc. And by that point I was crying my eyes out and had rushed into the room, called the police, and my brother had called my Mum's friend, and she got us out the house safely and held my Mum back from hitting us.
She had even slit her wrists and made up stories, one of which was "Raped by ten men"
So yeah.. the last two months have been a real struggle for me, and it's unfortunate for my brother, it all had to happen after such a lovely night. But it's been the same cycle for over 5 years, she's fine for a few weeks.. break down next week, hospital (we think she's better when she comes out) and then another breakdown.
Right now i'm staying at my Grandma's, and I haven't seen my Mum for over two months. I've even had horrible thoughts of ending my own life as all I seem to be getting is heartache, and sadness. But my councillers and social workers have helped me, so I hope to see you all again soon.
Love you all.
Leah/Trish.
xx
